Totally Horrible Blogger Award

This is what I need, the completely horrible blogging award.  I just have not been feeling it.  Work has been completely crazy and I tend to come home and zone out.  Nothing has happened on the adoption side of our lives.  I am sure that if I have any readers left they are tired of hearing about nothing happening.  I am tired of hearing about it.  I am really tired of talking about it.  I am getting to the point where I just want to move on.  I am so sick of living our lives on hold.  I still want to be a mom but that is just not the next step I thought it would be in my life.  Now I just need to figure out which direction to go and what I really want vs. what I really need.  That may take some time.

So this weekend is going to be filled to the brim.  Saturday, Emily and I are having a baby shower for Molly at our mom's house.  It will be brunch with a small crowd and I hope that Molly enjoys it.  I am excited for Molly and can't wait to see my niece or nephew in a few weeks.  Baby showers are not always the easiest thing for me, and I have found it a bit more complicated emotionally than I thought it would be.  However, I think it will be fun.

Sunday is Emma's Birthday, She is going to be 6.  I can not believe it. She is growing into quite the young lady.  Her party is going to be a "Royal Event" and we are to come in appropriate royal attire.  Which sounds fun however I have gained a ton few stress pounds since beginning the adoption process and the medications that I took for fertility treatments before and the ones that I currently take for other reasons have not helped either.  So I no longer own a skirt or dress that fits and we are not spending any non-essential money this month.  I know that everyone will understand when I show up in my jeans but I also know Emma is expecting the girls to wear dresses.  So I am making a tutu to wear over my jeans, yes I will look ridculous but she is 6 and tutus are fancy right?  I also have a crown, a septor and I might have to come up with a royal sash or somthing.  Jim is got his costume all worked out and he is going to look very royal.  It will be fun also, how often does a girl turn 6 anyway.

Hope next week is a little less hectic, have a great weekend everyone.