Our Life on a Blog

I know it seems like we document a lot of our lives on this blog and on Jim's blog and it's true, but there is so much more to us that what is bloggable.  We pick and choose the moments to share and many times they are the nice, cute, perfect family moments.  I try to occasionally show the funny and frustrating moments, the tough and the scary moments but that does not happen as often.  I feel I need to share this because I think some people (no one in particular) and even our daughter (if she ever reads this) will get the impression that our lives are exactly what is on the blog.  We are more than the sum of our blogs, much much more.  The experiences that we don't capture with a camera or a blog are just as important and shape us just as much as what we choose to share.

There are things happening in our lives, that I don't know if I will ever be able to blog about.  I hope that someday I will but every time I sit down to write about them I feel stuck.  I realize that I am just not ready to put them into writing yet.  However, these things are shaping and influencing me and my future.  Don't worry there are no horrible dark secrets in my closet but I have found the urge to blog about some of them interesting.  I think that in some cases I feel obligated to blog and share adoption related thing, as if it is my duty as an adoptive parent.  Why do we perceive these obligations?  I think that those that can share and help are amazing but if I am not there yet why do I feel it is my duty to be the educator.  I also find it funny that I like it when blogs "get real" and talk about the hard stuff but I can't seem to do it yet.  I wonder do other bloggers feel the same way.  

Then there are the things that I deliberately avoid on the blog.  Certain topics that I have decided (for our family) are taboo to discus in a public forum.  I guess because I don't like conflict, if a topic will cause drama I avoid it, most of the time.  I might risk it once in a while but for the most part I think I stay pretty safe.  I like it that way.  

It is interesting though that I feel guilt about what I put in my blog.  There are no set rules to blogging and I certainly am not followed enough people to be influencing others.  But I care and want people to be interested enough to come back here once in a while and hear what I have to say. I still love the blogging format and I love to be able to share glimpses of our life with others, I hope you don't mind that you're not always getting the whole picture.

Well, I have made it 18 posts in the Spring Fling!